Like the picture banner across the top? That is where my hubby will be shortly- but only for an hour or so. Ok...not exactly Nashville like in the picture, but Memphis. This is as close as I could get though. I didnt see a banner for Memphis- (I didnt really look either :). Hopefully everything goes smooth- if it does, he will be home tomorrow. If not, then Friday. Should I worry that he'll be flying home on September 11th??? I already turn into a super paranoid emotional cry baby when he has to fly for work...but come on. Out of all the days...364 OTHER days to be exact (not counting a leap year,but go ahead of you really want to), they picked that one. WTF. I am going to lose my freaking mind.
We (me and the boys) went out in the driveway to watch for his plane tonight. Last time he said it pretty much flew over our house and he could see it from up there. How neat. We waited for about 15 minutes, but no planes right over our house. They must have been going off a different runway tonight. We did see one north of here at about the right time, so for the kids sake, I said that it was daddy's plane. For all I know it really could have been. They waved to it and said bye Daddy, we love you. See you tomorrow and good night. Then they blew it a kiss. This is where my cry baby-ness comes out! I was totally choking back my stupid ass tears saying 'yep, bye daddy, we love you" and then waved to the plane too. This f-ing sucks.
(I have had a potty mouth lately- so just ignore my bad words if they bother you. Sometimes its just too hard to hold them back)
Now I get to spend the next 20 hours trying to NOT let my head get the best of me. This is where I sit and imagine worst case scenarios. I imagine *what if* and picture having to explain bad things to the little kids, or how I would do it without him. Then I get myself to the point of crying and have to tell myself waht a dumbass I am being...but I cant help it..it's in my genes to be paranoid. Sick, I know. You could call it a special talent that I have. I cant wait till tomorrow night when he is home safe and sound.
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