Burrrrr

All I can say today is that I am so cold. My fingers are cold, my toes are cold...I am sitting in front of the fireplace and I am still cold!  Even though the thermostat says that it is 73 in here, the air in the house is even cold -and that makes everything I touch cold...the counter, the keys on the keyboard, the toilet seat, the counter tops....brrrr. Not even my big humongus thick furry socks are doing the trick today. I dont even know if it is colder out than any other day, but for some reason or another...today is like the frozen Tundra (No, not Lambeau field...the REAL Tundra) right here in my house. Maybe, just maybe having some soup at Panera later on will help me out!!

BUUURRRRRRRRR

Fantastic, fabulous and festive fun on this freezing frozen day!

Sorry...I am feeling a little like that Cat in the Hat or something :)

What a fun day we have ahead of us! In just over an hour, we will be driving south a little bit to ride the Polar Express train with Santa and some friends of ours. I can't wait to see all the boys' faces!!! 5 Little boys on a train...and I think the 2 dad's will be having just as much fun as the kids!  They will be playing the Polar Express movie, coloring, having hot chocolate and visiting with Santa- not to mention a 45 minute ride on the train! All of the kids will be wearing their jammies just like in the movie too. I've got my Santa hat ready, too! Even though I am nervous about getting there with the roads being as slippery as they are, I think it is the perfect snowy weather for something like this! Tis' the season!! :) It will make it more magical for sure...it is special Christmas snow that Santa brought from the North Pole, you know! 

Then after that- we will be dropping the kiddos off for a fun night of spoiling at Grandma's house, while we come home and go to the neighbors house for a Mommy's and Daddy's only christmas party. So boy oh boy... it's pure bravery trudging out in the winter wonderland falling from the sky out there...but so worth it. I really have butterflies in my tummy. I feel like a little kid!! I love this time of year...blizzards and all. The gingerbread cookies are done... but I never got around to doing Christmas cards though -Sorry to everyone!! I really meant to..if it means anything, I mentally sent one to everyone- does that count? Didnt think so...

So- have a happy, fun and safe slippery day :)

www.sofineedsaheart.com

So...where do I begin on this one? There is this sweet little girl, Sofi. She is from Michigan and lives right across the street from one of my best friends, and has become just like one of her very own kids. I got the change to meet Sofi when we went to Michigan in June, and I haven't been able to stop thinking about her since. For one thing, she has the brightest twinkle in her eyes, and the sweetest smile you could imagine. Oh and her little tiny feet... just precious. She also has something wrong with her heart and needs a heart transplant.

I was talking to Sadie tonight and she told me some pretty bad news about little Sofi. She isn't doing so hot at the moment, and no one really knows what is going to happen. They have had to go to a hospital 3-4 hours away from home and will be there for a while. Hopefully they can get her healthy enough for a transplant- if  a heart finds it's way to them. My own heart is breaking for this family. They are a young family like most of us- and through all of this, the updates on the site from her mom have such a positiveness to them. It makes me feel horrible for taking advantage of my own kids' health when everyday is so precious to baby Sofi and her family.

I wish I were rich, I wish I could fix this for them, I wish I could make dreams happen. I keep thinking about where to go on spring break with my family, while they are happy with one more day with their baby girl. So I can't fix this for them, and you dont know how much I wish I could, but I can help spread the word. To top off this dramatic change in her health (She has had trouble since she was born, but this downfall was pretty unexpected) , her dad is laid off at the moment and their house has some leaking  water issues that they can't deal with until Sofi is taken care of. They  will be needing to get an apartment in the other city to be close to the hospital and their daughter...

So if you get the chance, take a look at her site and fall in love with her like I did. There is a spot for donations...and I know times are so hard, but if you can, I know it would mean the world to them. And if you aren't able...just keep them in your hearts and in your thoughts & prayers...and hope the best possible outcome for this great family and sweet little angel!!!

www.sofineedsaheart.com

 

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99.29% That is my final grade for this semester for the class I took. :) Yay...if I only cared this much about grades in highschool...I could have gotten all A's instead of the B's and C's I got only half assing my way through!!!  I am so happy....

Well...

I just really don't have anything interesting to say on here. Ok...there is a lot I could say on here, but nothing that I want to say to whoever happens to read this. :)

 I am done with my class for this semester. It feels good to be done, but it hasn't really sunk in yet. I still feel stressed out like I have tons of stuff to (Like wrapping a billion and a half presents!). I took my final last night and I feel pretty good about it. I am not too worried though- I checked my total grade for the class before the final, and  so far  I am at 100% :D Yeah baby! So no matter what I get on the final- I am sure I will get an A in the class. Thats nice. Now I am already worried about my next class- I am taking it online and I hope I have the motivation to stay on top of it! It will be hard to find time away for my class and still be in the house at the same time. I am sure it will work out though.

Me and Jake went tubing the other night. It was so much fun. We went for his birthday which is actaully tomorrow. It was an awesome date. We have been stuck in the movie and dinner dates forever. This was great- we went out to eat, did a little shopping and still had time for a couple hours of tubing and having hot chocolate, and still had some bonding time where I just fell in love all over agin :) Then it was off to my grandma's for his party (which was also very fun...except for Katie bailing out on it!! Just kidding Katie- you little punk).

Today while Justin was at preschool, I brought Ryan to Super Target (Which is way better than our Cub in this town...YUCK)- and we got a bunch of snacks and stuff to start our christmas cookies and treats :) This will be fun now that I dont have studying hanging over my head.

And I get the stent out (I think anyway) on Thursday. I am excited and nervous -but whatever. Hopefully this will help, and he will have some answers :) So...I guess I am done now. I have to go FINALLY take my shower and it's 1:00! My hair was really needing a good wash this morning so much, that I wore my winter hat into preschool to drop off and pick Justin up...and also the whole way through Target. It got a little hot- but atleast no one saw my dirty mop  that way.

QotD: Too Much Is Never Enough

Clothing, dinners, make-up, or gadgets... We all have things we like to splurge on. What do you think you buy too much of?

Well...this is an easy one for me- it is scrapbooking stuff. I can go into Archivers and spend 50.00 at a time easy- and not feel too bad about it. I do feel bad, but someday- we will look back and be so happy we have the scrapbooks :) Now, if I went to Target, or Maurices, or any other store, and spent 50.00 on clothes as often as I spend money on scrapbooking stuff, I would feel horrible...and have tons of clothes. I'd rather have the scrapbooking stuff! ;)

"Nap" Time

Ugh. I am sitting here waiting for Ryan to stop screaming like he is having his leg cut off just because he is supposed to be sleeping. We went to the mall this morning and he fell asleep for about 3 minutes on the way home. He was sound asleep when I got him into the house, but then I had to take off the jacket and shoes and lay him down, and then all hell broke loose! He just wont sleep now and he is keeping Justin awake too. Now neither of them have slept and probablly wont. Not that they could sleep even if they wanted to, because right at 1:00, they blew the sirens for the monthly testing, and about 10 minutes later the Schwans man rang the doorbell which set Ryan off all over again.
I cant even pretend to start doing something when he is screaming like this. I had motivation today too... finish some homework or get the stuff off of the counters from when we "tried" to organize the cupboards this weekend. We had to stop though...why??? Yep- the kids wouldnt sleep.

AAArrrrrgggghhhhh

Vox Hunt: Last Day of November

Fall is coming to an end... Show us a sign of the last days of fall.

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QotD: Thanksgiving Traditions

What are your favorite Thanksgiving traditions? Anything you're not so fond of?

I am trying to think of my favorite thing... all I can think of is being little and spending it at my Grandma's house with my whole family there and having football or something on the tv in the backround... and walking into her house for the first time that day and how it smells amazing. Everyone would be laughing and having fun and she decorates it so cute so it feels like something more than just a normal get together at her house. She makes the magic for the holidays!!

What am I not so fond of? I will just keep this one in my head, but if you know me...you probably know what I am thinking.

Come out, come out, wherever you are...

Where is everyone?? I sign on here once and while hoping to hear whats going on with everyone - and lately no ones been posintg!!! So, hello.... I am waiting to hear whats going on with everyone!!

As for me... I might be getting a new cell phone soon. The one I have is simple...and thats probably a good thing. I dont text, I dont surf the web on my phone...I probably make 1-3 calls a month on my phone. I am afraid if I had a nicer one that I'd always be texting or addicted to the internet on it. But...I think I am going to give in and get a modern one. Time to get with the times and not be an old fuddy duddy any more!! The thing is...then I'd have to change the plan- and I dont want to pay more... blah blah blah

 

Now I am off to either clean the kitchen or try to finish my book so I can write a paper on it. Decision decisioons...

Creative writing it is-

I just signed up for my next class. This feels like it is taking forever, basically because it is. I only want to take one class a semester for now, so by the time Ryan is in Kindergarten, I should be ready to go all out in the dental hygiene program and not have these dingy little generals to deal with. It is also a nice way for me to use my brain for other things right now too :)

So I waited too long after registration started and the classes I wanted to register for were full (Duh, right??). So I went with an online creative writing class. I have never done an onlineclass and I am afraid that if I dont HAVe to get up and go to a class, I will havea  hard time fiding time for this...but it is definately worth a try...especailly while the roads are crappy for winter.

I feel kind of dumb for talking about classes that I am taking right now since I am so past the normal age of the normal college student...but oh well.  It is what worked out and nothing is going to change it :) If only being a tavel agent was my calling...then I wouldnt be doing this. Haha. I am actaully really excited for this class...so now I am ready to move on from my drug use and abuse class to creative writing...but I still have to go till mid. December. How do I stay motivated in there now??

Still not sure...

So heres a quick little update on what I know. I had the surgery and they put the stent in yesterday. The urologist ran some dye through my kidney before he did that though, and he said that he couldn't see any obstruction with his eyes, but the dye didn't go where it should have. And seriously...that is all I know. So what is it...I have like this black hole in my kidney?? Kidding. I go back in 4 weeks to see him and to tell him if I have had the pain since getting the stent and that will tell a lot more about this whole thing. The vicotin wasn't working all that great and it was making me itch like crazy- so my sweet hubby is out now getting me some percocet from the Dr. since they can't just call them into Target. So...that is it for now. Hopefully I will know more in 4 weeks. Thanks for listening to me whine like a baby!

Still not sure...

QotD: The Season of Giving

The holidays are right around the corner, which means gift-giving (and buying) season is upon us. When do you usually purchase your gifts? What are the benefits/disadvantages of buying when you do?
Sponsored by Best Buy.

We are almost all done right now!!! Now the wrapping part- for some reason we are always up really late the night before doing that!

(I love this time of the year :)

Tuesday=big day for me...

How much do I say on here without going into too much detail on the past 8 years?? After being blown off by doctors who "tried" to help me find answers to pain that I have had in my side/back every couple of weeks, for a week or two at a time...I finally have someone who isnt taking "I dont know" as the final answer. After having some tests that are perfectly normal, and some that show things that arent quite right with my kidney...someone is finally doing something to figure out what could be causing it. There has not been a definite reason to ever show up, but he can tell  there is something making it hurt and get weird and not do exactly what the other one is doing...

So Tuesday, I am going in to get a stent in the the little tube that drains your kidney.  This way, if the pain is still there- we will know that there is something else causing the pain. If it stops hurting...then we will know it is kidney related and he will try to figure out what it is then.

I dont even know why I am saying this to whoever reads this thing...but after 8 years of dealing with this- you have no idea how relieved I am to have someone help FIX it and make it go away forever. I guess it takes a doctor who has gone through the same thing to actually understand what it feels like. I got lucky when they set me up with him. So...here's hoping!

My two new favorites...

Tweak: Growing Up on Methamphetamines

Nic Sheff

 

Beautiful Boy: A Father's Journey Through His Son's Addiction

David Sheff

I read Beautiful Boy for my class, and I really liked it. So when I was done reading it, I went out and bought Tweak. Beautiful Boy is the story of father dealing with his son's meth addiction, and Tweak is that same story, but the son's side of it. I seriously have never done a drug in my life (if you dont count caffiene, tylenol, and the percocet they gave me after having c-sections)...and for some reason these books have totally gotten into my head. I was up reading until 1:30 last night because I didnt want to stop. Saturday night, I read it for about 45 minutes while I was taking a bath, and once I realized my water was cold...I looked up and realized I was in my own bathroom and not on the streets in California watching Nic relapse like I felt like I was.

So, if you are wondering why I havent been on here much, it's because I spend all my free time reading these books... I am really pulling for Nic...the thing that really gets to me is that the story is right now...this isn't a story from 10, or 20 years ago. He has a blog (or he did, but closed it down just yesterday). He wasn't on it for a while and I thought he relapsed again and It made me sick. I can't believe some of the things Nic did to get his drugs. And it is really intersting because I read David Sheff's book first, and he would talk about Nic being gone for weeks etc... I would wonder what Nic was doing and where he was. Then I read Nic's book and I am finding out all of those answers and what was going through his head. I am really kind of bummed that he closed the blog because when I am done with his book...it's just going to be over. I wont be able to find out how he's doing from his blog. 

I dont even know them, and I dont understand why I am so interested...but I hope for them that everything works out!

I thought it was Halloween but it feels like Friday the 13th to me

So I am gonna make this short and sweet...I brought Ryan to Target for his 18 month pictures (for the second time this week...the camera flash was broken the first time). It was horrible. He wouldnt cooperate (which I totally expected from a 19 month old...yes I was late getting him in). The girls were bitchy and rude about it and all they wanted to talk about was going to the bar. Nice. They were trash at its finest. Whatever. Finally got 2 pictures that were barely ok so I just went with them to get the H outta there.
So then I was not in the mood to come home and make anything for lunch because I was already stressed out from whatever it was that just happened at Target. I bring them to nasty McDonalds by our house. Well...since it is in a touristy high traffic area there are TONS of parking spots for semi trucks. Today there were a few too many trucks there, so they were all over the place and parking on the curbs and parking the long way along 12 car spots. Then I look because I feel like someone is standing over my shoulder and I see a semi trailer about...not exaggerating.... 12 inches from my van and it JUST stopped backing up. Argh. I panicked until I saw the other driver helping him and being his extra set of eyes. I thought we were gonna get smooshed by the truck and I wanted to freak out.

Then I split open a cut I got a couple of weeks ago when I was cutting a head of lettuce. I was seriously came close to cutting off a nice sized chunk of skin on the side if my pionter finger. It is finally back to one piece and attached- but today I bumped it just with my other finger and it started bleeding again. I think most normal people would have gone to get stitches that day... but I am not normal I guess.

So there you have it. Mabye I should just stay home and hand out candy tonight. It's just not my day.

Highlights from the past few days

I feel like all of the sudden all 3 of my little punks are saying/doing things that are either melting my heart or making me laugh...usually a mix of both. Here are some of my favorites....

Andy:

1. He got home from school yesterday and I was going through his backpack at the table. He was sitting across from me eating a cookie and he asked me if I am going to vote for the president. I guess I never expected that to go hand-in-hand...1st grade, eating cookies and talking politics...but whatever. I told him that Yes, I am going to vote. Then he asked me who I am going to vote for. Hmmm... I tell him that I really dont know yet  because I dont really like either person running for president. He takes another bite of his cookie and then tells me that he thinks I should vote for John McCain. I asked him a few questions to figure out just why I should vote for him.... I never really got a straight answer, other than his name is better than "Bo Hama's". Good enough reason, right?

2. The other day when Andy got home from school, I took him out on a date :) Just me and my little man. I really really had fun with him. Daddy was home with the two little ones, and me and Andy shopped and hung out together. I brought him to Old Navy and let him pick out some new clothes...and for the first time ever- he had an opinion on what he got. He walked past racks and picked out smalls and mediums depending on if it was pants or shirts. He picked out a hat and gloves and some stylin jeans. I just sat back and let him pick out his own things and you know what? He has better taste than his mama- thats for sure. He told me a few times that he was having so much fun. I told him I was too! After that we went to Target and got some Halloween candy and on the way home we went and got a hot chocolate at Caribou. We went in and he picked out the table for us to sit at and everything. It was SO much fun. He told me his favorite part was checking the tag on the clothes to make sure they were the right size...then he wanted to know if that was my favorite part too. I told him my favorite part of clothes shopping is finding nice clothes. This is the funny part...Jake wanted to bring them all to Lowes to get something the other night and Andy grumbled about it and said that he only likes clothes shopping with mommy. Woooohoooo! I guess we might need to make a few more trips to Lowes and Sears tool dept. every once and a while too.

 

Justin

My sweet little Justin played me like a fool last night! We had just gotten them all tucked into bed and I went down to the living room to try to do a little homework. I got myself snuggled in with my book and papers propped up on pillows so I could see them better and everything. I started flipping through my book and I hear a little noise at the bottom of the stairs. I look up over the back of the couch and see Justin. I was irritated for a second (because this is happening EVERY night latley). I tried to be strong and make him go back up to his bedroom by himself. I told him we already tucked him in and he needs to stay there and go back to bed. He is holding his little Moo and hugging it the way he does. (Like a baby... his little hand around the butt, he supports it's head with his other hand, and he rubs it's tail between his fingers). He says, "But Mommy...I want to snuggle with you."  I am still trying not to get played by a three year old, so I tell him he can't just get out of bed for that and to go back upstairs. (that killed me, by the way). He hugs his Moo up closer to his face and says, "I love you to the moon and to the stars Mommy" and he turns away giving me his saddest puppy face ever. Ok, I LOSE...get over here so I can hug you. That turns into me carrying him up the stairs to his bed and tucking him in again. I told him I loved him and thanks for being my little snuggle bug. He smiled like a big shit because he knew I caved and he won. Yep. I got played..

 

 

Ryan

I am so excited for Ryan because he is starting to say more and more words. His newest are: Elmo, baby, All gone, choo choo, Molly (our cat), meow meow, bye bye, and instead of saying "no" when he doesnt want something, he says Hmm-mm. And one of my big favorites is that he sings Rock-a-bye baby with me now. All I can understand is bye baby- but hearing his little voice sing is so sweet. Today he was listening to Andy count something and he started mocking him...he wasnt really saying all of the numbers or anything , but he was saying two, two, two... and you could tell he was counting (or pretending to). I seriously can't belive what he understands either. If I tell him to go get his shoes, he goes and finds them wherever he left them and then sits down right in front of me with them. I will give him a skittle and then give him one more and tell him to give it to daddy or whoever is around- and he listens. He doesnt walk away and eat it.  Hell...I would walk away and eat it, so the fact that he doesnt shocks me! And let me just say that the random hug for no reason is still one of the best things ever....even better when he pats you wtih his chubby little hands :) And one last thing...He is the ONLY one of the 3 boys who went to sleep when we put them to sleep tonight! Yay Ryan!!!

The other two are still getting up and it's 10:15.... tomorrow will be interesting! Boy do I feel sorry for their teachers :)

My happy place is being taken over by mommy-ness

Ok...so not that I actually have a "happy place" or anything, but I am even a worry-wart mama in my day dreams. We are toying with the idea of driving out to Disney Land and driving on Route 66 for part of the way. (Thank you, Lightning McQueen!) Not that this will happen, but it's a big maybe?? So I sat there last night, day-dreaming (how about that one, huh??...last NIGHT...DAY dreaming?? Yeah..ok. Too much wine tonight??? Easily amused. I can see that!) about being in California, and of palm trees, and beaches. Ahhh...just laying on the beach, or in the water on a floatie relaxing. BUT, I seriously didn't get too far into that day dream before I was worrying about finding hotels to sleep at along the way to make sure nobody fell asleep at the wheel or anything. But more than that... I couldn't lay on my stinking raft without worrying about the boys! Are they wearing sunblock? Do they have their life jackets on? If I am relaxing on a raft, who would be watching them? Would they be on a raft right next to me, and if so, is the water over their heads? And if they are right next to me...I can't relax because I need to watch them!  If they aren't right next to me, are they with daddy, grandma.... and if they went anywhere fun while I was floating on my raft, are they safe?? Did they drive, did they get strapped safely into car seats when they left. If jake and I went somewhere alone in my daydream, did we fly (Did we go to Hawaii?? :)? Are the kids fighting with eachother back at Grandpa- Grandma's house? Oh man, then there's the flight home.... or the drive home. Did they go to Mc.Donalds playland for fun one night? IF they did, I hope they are careful and that they don't fall. I don't want them to break a bone or get seriously injured while I am floating on my damn raft.

That's it. Enough of this raft. No more happy place. It's more stressful than being in reality! Atleast in reality, I can see them and know they are snuggled up in their beds and that they are safe... and that I am not on a raft in a pool or on a beach. Sigh.

Hahaha. (And this was just the daydream... what would it really be like?)

QotD: The Dog Ate It

What's the best excuse you've ever heard?

This just irritates me. There is this girl in my class who is gone every day that we have a test. (The whole two times so far). On Monday, she was gone but I think she went in earlier to take the test- why? I dont know. You arent supposed to be able to miss a test unless you are in the hospital...or so she says. But she has no problem letting this girl not be in class every time we take a test! The first time we had a test and I noticed she was gone, I thought it was weird. So when I saw her the following week, I said "oh. You missed last week. "Just opening the door for whatever she wanted to say... She says, "Oh yeah. We just bought a kitten and it got sick and I had to bring it to the vet earlier that day. It was almost deathly ill. Yeah. We just had such a crazy weekend. You know...things are crazy. My husband is working, and I have this class." I though he was working overtime, but she said he was only doing 40 hrs. She told me once that she was a para for special ed, but told someones else she didnt have a job. I have talked to her a few times in the past few weeks, and she is so full of excuses for herself about everything. I just think "Stop justifying why you dont do or why you do certain others and just do SOMETHING. She doesnt work, and she only has one class and no kids. I dont see why this one class is taking so much out of her. But thats just me not being very nice. Grr

Little Gremlins in my house

I got home early from my class tonight and I still had time to do the normal bedtime things with the kids. So after we got them tucked in, I wanted to check my email and relax for a minute- but after about 5-10 minutes, I get that weird feeling that someone is behind me. I turn around and Andy AND Justin are tip-toeing and creeping up on me behind my back. they even had their arms up in front of them like they do on Scooby-Do when they are looking for clues. Andy was in front and Justin was back by the door. They were BOTH in here and we just put them to bed. It really struck me funny, even though I couldn't laugh in front of them because then they would have been up all night sneaking up on me. I don't know... they just looked like little cuties all snuggly in their jammies, sneaking up on mommy like tigers hunting their prey. I had to find out what they wanted since they were both up. I thought they both wanted something together and joined forces to take me down. But Andy just wanted to know what all that banging was??? Maybe Daddy in the garage?? And Justin needed help with his jammy shirt because the buttons weren't matched up  just right. I wish I had the camera ready for that one. It was the last thing I thought I would see when I turned around... but there they were :)

A cowhorse!!!

We finally made it to the apple orchard :) I am so excited to have a ton of apples to make treats with...pies, cake, bread and caramel apples-even caramel apple icecream sundaes... mmmmmm. The orchard we go to has this tree lined curvey hilly driveway to get to the parking lot. It is beautiful. When you get to the top of the hill, there is a small fenced in area for the horses that you can ride around the orchard and then sit by the bon fire when you're done. (We have never done that- but I think it would be FUN!!) One of the horses had brown spots on it- and not the little spots all over, but the BIG spots like a cow. I hear Andy in the back seat make a sound...you know the sound when a kid is amazed and sees something weird or amazing for the first time?? Yeah- thats the one! Then he says... "Look! A cowhorse!!! " He wasnt kidding or being funny. He really thought that it was a cow...and a horse :) I really wish they wouldn't grow up. This is so much fun!!! Although Ryan didn't like it there. He cried about 90% of the time. I don't know if he was tired or just didnt like to be cold- but we only lasted 30-45 minutes there. No tractor pulled wagon ride through the orchard to hand pick our own apples this year. But that is ok :) We might go back this week some night and try one more time! Crazy- yep. But that is 1/2 the fun!

All wound up

I went out with the neighbor girls tonight and now I am wired. I didnt even have a drink or anything...Well, I guess I did if you count MelloYello. I think my mind is all stimulated from adult conversation. I forgot what that was like...even though most of the talk was about the kids and pregnancy anyway. But really...days like this are kind of though, and I know that I shouldnt feel bad because I am very lucky to have my 3 kids, and I know for us- that is a good number. But ever since Ryan was born...I have always wanted one more. I love being pregnant and I love the baby stage. There are times when I am scrapbooking Ryan's baby book that I get choked up seeing the fresh little newborn hospital pictures- and it sucks because I know I will never experience it again. Now its all just a memory and I fee like I still teeter on the decision. I would love to be pregnant and have another little baby. I still think it's hard to find out people are pregnant and to see baby bellies... I just have to remind myself about how busy we are, and about all the other reasons we decided to be done too. But because there is that part of me that just doesnt care about those reasons and wants nothing more than to have just 1 more- today was so hard. I found out someone we know is expecting another baby...this is their 4th. Then tonight, one of the girls there was adorable and preggo, and then three more neighbors are pregnant...one 6 weeks, one 11 weeks, and one due in December. I am happy for them, but in my mind I am totally jealous!! I know that I shouldnt be, because we have our three little guys- but how do you NOT be?? I seriously need to tell myself it would be NUTS with 4 and to remind myself of the trips we will take...and about the extra attention that a baby would take away from our three. And I know enough people who have tried for a long time to have a baby, and if I could give up my chances (even though it's not possible anymore) to promise they could have one, I would do it so fast and I want it for them SO much. So I feel guilty even saying this when they deserve it so much more. But damn. I will always feel that weird "what if" or "Should we have"... But, I am totally happy with my honeys and I have no regrets about stopping to make sure that they got enough attention from us :) BUT if anyone ever has a baby, you can fully expect me at your doorstep at all hours of the night :)I will bring treats, and diapers and anything else you want. I am totally kidding. Just let me hold it and smell it... I will even do over nights for you so you can get a good night sleep! I might buy it clothes... and you might need to pry it out of my arms... but thats about it.

please? I wonder if the labor and delivery floor would think I was weird if I asked if I could just hang out there?? (kidding again...)

Bike vs. Car...why did I look??

I brought Andy and Ryan to get haircuts today... (Justin came with too, but he already got his haircut last week). On the way home, I saw flashing lights up the street going in the opposite direction as we are, Then I realized they were stopped. I thought it was a pretty weird place for an accident since there wasnt a big intersection or anything...just a side street the only makes a T in the street. I thought maybe the driver was sick or something because there was only one car- until I looked when we got closer. Thats when I saw the little bike. It was a kids bike, but a bigger one. I shouldnt have looked. I didnt even see the kid or anything, but just knowing that it happened makes me want to cry. It didnt look bad though. There was no damage to the car or the bike. I can make myself feel better just thinking that maybe it was "better safe than sorry" with the ambulance. NEVER rubber neck if you might not like what you will see... and chances are, that most of the time you will see something that will wreck your day. :( Poor kid.

 

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Since I couldnt think of anything for a subject tonight, I just thought I'd make a little smiley. I have never really been given this compliment before...but I really like it and it gave me the little butterflies in my stomach. I waited for weeks ( I think 3, but maybe 4) to get my paper back from my teacher to see my grade. Everytime I passed the computer, I would check to see if she posted grades yet . I was really getting annoyed with how long it was taking her, but now tonight I know my grade. I was so nervous when I saw somebody walk past me with their paper and I saw that they only got  1/2 the points. (Yes, I looked at their paper when they walked past- they weren't trying to hide it...and I wasn't obvious when I peeked. Anyone would have done it!! :) I got the full points for the paper, but that isn't what made me feel so good. What made me feel so giddy was what she wrote at the end of my paper...

"This was a great paper- one of the best, if not the best one written. Very impressive! :) "

Yep, I even got the little smiley face too.

I just keep thinking that there must not be many smart people taking her classes or that she is the easiest grader ever :) Whatever...I will take it.

Ok... I promise I wont toot my own horn anymore. I just felt damn good to read that- now I am done. Haha.

What do you do when there's too much to do?

You could do what I am doing at the moment, and avoid doing anything excpet for reading other peoples websites :) I just found my neighbor's page since it is part of her signature in her emails. The thing is that I have so much to do, the last thing I should be doing is reading these things...or writing a new one of my own! But I figured since I got the boys' closets sorted and orgnanized by size and season again...I deserve a damn break :) That is 3 closets cleaned out (in 1/2 a day) and now all the clothes in each of their closets actaully fit them again!

Now I should be reading- I have 2 chapters to read for Monday. I should be writing the 4-6 page paper on the book I had to read for that class too (it was an AWESOME book). Or, I could be doing the small resource assignment she gave us on Monday. I could be putting away our mountain of laundry, or picking up any room in the house since they all need it right now. I could be cleaning the bathrooms becasue they need it too. I could be going through the boys' old toys and putting them in keep/sell or donate piles. I could be putting the rocks I bought at Bachmans around the pond in the front to finish the landscaping. They have only been sitting out there in bags for two weeks now. I could be taking a shower since I have the chance to get cleaned up today finally. I could be returning some curtain rods I bought at Target...or filling out the little survey they give you at the register...boy would it be nice to win 5 grand to Target :) I could also be cleaning out the garden, or getting ready to bake. I could be taping off the top half of my very red bathroom so I can paint it tan and leave the bottom red. I could be going through old frames and things to hang on our walls so they aren't so empty. I could be painting the second color on the peg board for my scrapbook room...and I could be working on a page or two while I am at it!

But I am not. I am sitting on here instead. I think it is just that there is so much to do... and I can't concentrate on one thing long enough to actaully finish it, so nothing feels like it ever gets done. Oh well. This is the first time I have sat down today. But now I think it is time to break out the homework... that is until monkey 1 and monkey 2 wake up from their naps :) That reminds me...Andy had a field trip today! I wonder how that went. They should be on their way back to school right about now!

Vox Hunt: Always Instyle

Show us your favorite pair of jeans.

I only have one...yes...ONE pair of jeans at the moment. Well- I have two if you count the pair that has a big old hole in the knee too. And I guess since I am wearing them (the good pair) at the moment...I am not giong to go downstairs and take a picture of them, and then come back upstiars to the computer, and then download that picture along with about 100 others that I've taken lately. It's just too much work. :) They are from Maurices though...of course. Almost everything in my closet is from that place. So by default, the pair I am wearing is my favorite pair becuase it is my ONLY pair. So really, why did I just waste my time writing this if I am not even going to show you my jeans? I dont really know. Maybe I am avoiding CLEANING!!! hahahaa

A day early, but...

Krissy and Danny

I love you and miss you. Atleast I know that Andy, Justin, Ryan and Haylee have the best guardian angel we could have ever asked for. I wish they could have met their uncle- they would have adored you :)

Watch them for your 2 little sisters, would ya??

The opposite game

I like to play this game with Justin alot. I played it with Andy too, but now he is in first grade, and this game isn't fun for him so he doesnt like to play it with me anymore. I guess it's not really a game though- I just sit and ask Justin the opposite of whatever word comes to mind. What is the opposite of Up? What is the opposite of black? So today, I asked him what the opposite of high is. When he finally answered me, it took me a minute to figure out what he meant since I was excpecting to hear "Low".  He tells me the opposite of "high" is "hello".  Once I figured out the way he took the meaning of HIGH as HI - I busted up. I couldnt stop. I guess it must have been on of those -you had to be there- times...but I thought it was pretty cute :)

2 new words in 1 day :)

Yesterday Ryan said 2 new words within an hour of eachother: Daddy and Tickle, tickle! It was so cute to hear and see him talking. He hasnt really been much of a talker yet. He has pretty much stuck with Hi, mama/num num (same word sometimes) and "here go" when he hands you something. But yesterday after we got done eating, Jake took Ryan out of his high chair and Ryan walks right up to Justin and smiles. Then he sticks his little chubby hand in between the bars on the back of the chair and tickles Justin and this time actually says "tickle tickle tickle" It was so darn cute. It came out :"ti-go, ti-go, ti-go" but in his cute little voice it melted my heart.
Later on Jake was out staking up the new trees we planted in the back yard and Ryan was watching him through the patio door in the kitchen. He is sitting here saying Hiiiiiiii Hhhiiiiiiiii... so I say Hiiiiii Daaaaadddyyyy. Then Ryan repeated me clear as day :) "Hiiiii Daddy!" He even spit out an "Andy" (sounds like 2 different words...Aaaa- neeee) and a "love you" too (yaaa-yooo). I am just all lovey and squishy over it. He has said love you and Andy before...just not often. He must have felt like being talkative yesterday :) I am so proud of my little baby!!

 

My number wasnt drawn

Last night I went to see Sylvia Browne at the convention center. I REALLY needed to have a night out, so it was really fun. I dont know if I believe that stuff or not. Some of it was so real, but then I wondered if they planted some of those people in the audience? Other people got answers that even I could have given... my personal favorite was this one...

The night my husband/son/nephew (cant remember which one) died, he went down into the basement with the phone. Why did he do that??

Here was Sylvia Brownes real answer after she looked like she was thinking real real hard....

Ummm.... to    make    a    phone call... yeah. He was just going to make a phone call.

Really?? Okay. Because I was confused about why someone would have the phone with them. I thought maybe he was going to try to be like McGayver and make a bomb out of it to commit suicide that way. Making a phone call was the LAST thing I would have ever thought he'd of been doing with the phone.

BUT it was fun. I had a great time with the people I went with and it was entertaining. I wish the number on my wrist band was called to ask a question so I could have seen how real and accurate the answer was. My Mother-in-Law was only ONE number away from getting called. Maybe next time?

I hate these damn business trips

Like the picture banner across the top? That is where my hubby will be shortly- but only for an hour or so. Ok...not exactly Nashville like in the picture, but Memphis. This is as close as I could get though. I didnt see a banner for Memphis- (I didnt really look either :). Hopefully everything goes smooth- if it does, he will be home tomorrow. If not, then Friday. Should I worry that he'll be flying home on September 11th??? I already turn into a super paranoid emotional cry baby when he has to fly for work...but come on. Out of all the days...364 OTHER days to be exact (not counting a leap year,but go ahead of you really want to), they picked that one. WTF. I am going to lose my freaking mind.
We (me and the boys) went out in the driveway to watch for his plane tonight. Last time he said it pretty much flew over our house and he could see it from up there. How neat. We waited for about 15 minutes, but no planes right over our house. They must have been going off a different runway tonight. We did see one north of here at about the right time, so for the kids sake, I said that it was daddy's plane. For all I know it really could have been. They waved to it and said bye Daddy, we love you. See you tomorrow and good night. Then they blew it a kiss. This is where my cry baby-ness comes out! I was totally choking back my stupid ass tears saying 'yep, bye daddy, we love you" and then waved to the plane too. This f-ing sucks.

(I have had a potty mouth lately- so just ignore my bad words if they bother you. Sometimes its just too hard to hold them back)

Now I get to spend the next 20 hours trying to NOT let my head get the best of me. This is where I sit and imagine worst case scenarios. I imagine *what if* and picture having to explain bad things to the little kids, or how I would do it without him. Then I get myself to the point of crying and have to tell myself waht a dumbass I am being...but I cant help it..it's in my genes to be paranoid. Sick, I know. You could call it a special talent that I have. I cant wait till tomorrow night when he is home safe and sound.

Should have written that a couple of weeks ago :)

Since I wrote that I was waiting for all of my stuff to get here yesterday (for weeks) it ALL showed up. How exciting! The couches look nice being the same color again. I am worried about the bar stools for the kitchen though. After I put the first one together, I saw a warning lable on the outside of one of the other boxes that said "Handling or using this product will expose you to lead"... What part of this is lead? The little wrench they give you to assemble the thing, the screws, or the stain/paint that they used to finish the chair??? I dont want my kids sitting on a chair that has lead somewhere on it. I want grandkids some day damnit!  And not to mention the other bad things that go along with lead. So we'll see if I keep those. I am going to call to see if they can tell me where they used lead. If its the tools- no big deal. If its the stain/laquer they used on it, then forget it. Who the hell used lead these days. Damn you JcPenneys.

I need Mr. Rogers "Speedy Delivery" guy

I am getting sooooooo soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo imaptient. We ordered 2 slip covers for the couches in the living room. Well...I guess we bought the one in stock and ordered the other one that we needed that wasnt there on the shelf. The cashier ordered it and had it shipped to our house with no delivery charge, which was very nice. The bad thing is that she ordered the wrong style. I waited 3 weeks for the thing to show up and it was the wrong one :(  So we went to the store and returned the wrong one and they ordered the right one and said it would be another 2 weeks. We are probably going on just over 6 weeks now since we first ordered the thing in the first place. AND I ordered 3 bar stools for the island in the kitchen from the same place about 1- 1 1/2 weeks ago. So any day, I should be getting the ups truck at my door with goodies for my house. It feels like they will never get here. The chairs are still in the normal time frame for delivery, but that slip cover is driving me crazy. They screwed it up in the first place and now we are STILL waiting. Any longer and I am gonna go find the truck myself and deliver it myself.  I bet Mr. McFeeley would have had it to us 4 weeks ago. :) I just get so excited to get the things that will make the rooms feel more cozy and finished!!! I guess theres no hurry since we will be here forever...but I am getting impatient for the things we ordred  6 weeks ago...and worried they are lost or delivered to the wrong place!

Oh- and now everytime I hear a truck go by, I get so excited and have to go check the door to see if it was the UPS man :) Pathetic!! I feel like a little kid at Christmas!

**Santa's Special Magic **

Today when I was eating a peanut butter and jelly with Justin, we were talking about things that  little kids like to talk about. I was singing a song and Justin told me to sing a Christmas song instead. The first song that came into my head was "Up on the Roof top"- so I sing it to my 2 smallest little boys...

Afterwards, Justin asked me, " How does Santa get down those chimneys anyways mom?" I told him it was specail Santa magic and not even mommy knows how Santa does it! Its a secret! Justin says, "No mom! I know how he does it! He has a door knob in his pocket that he takes out and wherever he wants to get in, he sticks the door knob and makes the door with the magic!"

Well... I guess he has it all figured out :) I love the imagination- I wish mine worked like that!!!

one week down...

I cant believe the first week of schol is almost over already! It has been going great too! Last year was so hard for Andy...and for me- becuase it was hard to hear him say that he just wanted to stay home and play with us and his toys ;) But this year has been great so far. He loves his teacher and has friends from last year in his class this year. Even Justin has done great so far! He kind of remembers me leaving him in the sib care room while me and Andy went to his class for ECFE preschool a couple of years ago...but he has never just been dropped off and alone like this! I have always been in the same building (Unless it is grandmas house or something, but thats different!) He strutted his stuff the whole way to school, up the sidewalk, peeked through the door like get this thing open, strutted to his classroom and once we got there... cowered behind my leg :) One little sentence was all he needed, and then he was fine! All I had to tell him was that the other kids were nervous too- and he started up the strut again (after he made sure the Thomas the Train table was still in the classroom!) I am so proud of my two little school boys :) Heres some pictures from the first day...a little late!

 

 

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Waitng for school to start....

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Still waiting for school to start...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Every year we will take their picture in front of this door :) It will be crazy to look back on how much they grow each year!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Buddies (for the moment!)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Everyone is getting their higs and kisses...it's time to go!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Well, would you let us in already???

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Hmmm. Do I REALLY want to go through with this??

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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My first day of preschool ever! I found a toy and I am happy as could be!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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I took this one on my way out the door. Obviously you can tell which one of us has separation anxiety. I will give you a hint. It is NOT the 3 1/2 year old! I looked back and saw him sitting their coloring with his friends and I kind of got teary. I cant believe thiat is my little Justin. What a big boy!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I wish I could go to Andy's class with him and take pictures too...but in 1st grade, I think they might not like that! haha. I did get some of him getting off the bus though! What a week!

STUCK

I had so many places to go today. I was going to go to the mall and pick up the valences we ordered, then I was going to bring the kids out to eat lunch while we were at the mall, then I was going to go to exchange a poster frame that has some chips in it for Andy. Then we had to get some stuff for supper tonight at the store...We all got as far as getting our shoes on and walking out the door- when Andy cam back IN the door looking guilty as heck. I knew what he did right a way. I said "You did not just lock my keys in the van when you went out there, did you??" He said yes and it was an accident. All the doors were locked except my driver side door- so he opened that one to unlock the rest of them. He pushed the button down (LOCK) and then shut the door. He tried to open the back door- still locked. Then he opened my door again but what do you know...now thats locked too. I brought my purse and the diaper bag out on the first trip so I didnt need to carry all of that and Ryan too.. I should just be happy that I didnt bring Ryan out with the first trip or he would have been strapped into a locked van with mommy's keys locked in the front seat! :( So there sat my keys poking out of the top of my purse locked in the van. I could see the keys - just couldnt get to them. That is SO frustrating. So here we sit. I ended up making corn dogs for luch and rounded something up for supper...which happens to be partty dang good! I had some ribs from Von Hanson's hiding in my freezer, some garlic mashed potatoes (betty crocker form a pouch- I will cheat tonight), corn...and for a treat I found some apple cinnamon muffins. They just sounded really good so I wanted to use them too! Oh well. It sucks to get out the door and have to go right back in. It could have been worse though- Ryan could have gotten locked in - or we could have been at the store when it happened! Atleast were were at home. Now I am stuck here till Jake gets home at 5-ish.  Ugh- I hate being stranded- even if it is at home. grrr

So long lazy summer days!

Its official. I start school tonight.(Yay for the extra income when I am done!!!!!!)  Andy and Justin start next Tuesday. I am going to miss the lazy summer days with the boys, but I think they are ready for a change. They are starting to get at eachothers throats about everything. They even tattle if the other one smiles at him for something. Usually the smile is because of something mean...but come on. I am losing my patients with the constant bickering- so this will be good. They will each have their own thing to do and wont be with eachother all of the time. I just feel bad because I pictured spending long days out by the pool with lemonade and friends, popsicles, trips to the beach and the pool and time working on things inside on rainy days or HOT days...like making little art projects and working on little work books... We hardly did any of that. We really did do alot of things too- but it just feels like we wasted most of the summer away- like we could have done more. Then there are the excuses...it isnt fun to be outside when its 90 and humid. Ryan is almost too small to be  out all day by the pool. If we go out now, they will miss nap time. Blah blah blah. I will be more organized with a list of fun things for next summer. I can check them off as we go then. I do better with a list. If I see it and it's not checked off- it will drive me batty! And, they will all be a little older which will make things (fun trips) way more easy! Yay-here's to next summer!!!

I am excited for this time of year though. I am ready for the awesome, cooler fall days where it is not humid. I am excited for the apple orchard and making apple pies and apple sundaes-- and the hay rides too!  I am excited to see the leaves change and I am excited to see Andy and Justin having their own excitement for school and watching them learn. I am excited to give Ryan one on one time the mornings that Justin is at pre school. And weirdly enough...I am excited for football (even more now that big boy Andy likes it as much as his daddy!) Just as long as it doesnt snow and get cold too soon- I will be ok. I hate the REALLY cold weather as much as I hate hot humid weather!! I love the snow, and dont mind cold weather too much (only if I have my snow pants on when we are making a snow man...) but that bitter cold that freezes your eyelashes and inside of your nose...not so fun!  Ok...where am I going with this?? I am easily distracted :) Do you know what else the fall and cooler weather means? Now we get to do all of those projects around the house that we kept saying, "We'll do that this fall." Yeah... so let the projects begin :) 

Good bye's are never easy

It doesn't matter if you know for a while that someone is sick, and that the end is coming...or if it is a fast and sudden loss that you are not prepared for. Today we had the funeral for Jake's grandpa. I dont know what to say other than I am honored to have known such a sweet, gentle and loving man. I cant say enough about him. He is everything that I hope for for my boys when I think about their futures. Even though he wasnt my grandpa by blood, I thought of him as my own  grandpa, He was one of those people who you can look into his eyes and just see what a gentle person he was. Up until his very last hours, he was not only keeping his sense of humor, but his care and concern for other people too. When we went to see him the day beofre he passed away, he asked me how my mom has been feeling and to tell me she was a nice lady. He was a special special person- the kind of person that the world needs more of. I am lucky to have known him. We love you and miss you Grandpa Ken!!!

Back to School

Its that time of the year again. I cant believe the time is almost here. Andy is excited to get back, and Justin is ready to start his very first year of preschool. AND... for the first time since Ryan was born, I am going back too! Wow, it is wierd to say that! I am taking a health class called Drug use and Abuse. This is an elective that I picked hoping that it looks good when the time comes to get into the dental hygiene program. If I picked some other random elective, they might take someone with more science/health etc... classes, so I am trying to be the one who has the good classes in my record to get into the dental program! I am nervous about finding the time for everything...but I wil ljust need to be more organized and follow the schedule that I come up with to get everything done. Dicipline- haha...I have never had that, but I can always try!! Maybe Jake will let me get some school clothes too!

I got my motivation for school back when I brought the boys to get their teeth cleaned last week. The dentist asked if I was still going to school for hygiene, and I said yes. But I also told him I was not sure if I could do it because I didnt want to put the kids in daycare for the summers. He told me how flexible the dental field was, and that they have temps, and that its no big deal to take a month or two off for summers. I could also work nights for the summers and cut back on hours and everything. It was nice to hear that- I was so relieved. It looks like my childhood dream of going to this school to become the tooth fairy, might just happen after all :)

Our trip to the zoo

On Monday, I brought the boys to the zoo. We renewed our membership so we can go all of the time again. The last time we were at the zoo, was the fieldtrip for Andy's class at the end ofthe year. The new Russia/Grizzly exhibit wasnt even open at the time. We had a great time too!! We got there around noon, and left when it closed at 6pm- and we still didnt even see everything.

Go figure... I took too many pictures again! This isnt even all of them- Oh well. :D

Hmmm.

I am just not in the mood to write on this thing lately. I am just stalling to make sure Justin and Ryan are sleeping beofore I go and try to clean up my scrapbook room. I hate working in there when it is over run with tools, dust from putting knobs on the cabinets...and the paper that I have out all over the place instead of put away where it belongs... The whole point of that room is to have a nice place to go work- so I am going to try a little bit today to get it as close to that as I can.

So... in as few words as possible I will say:

1. We are looking at getting a new car. Hopefully we will get rid of BOTH other vehicles this time around. (Not the van, but the two others that dont work the best) Just to have 2 good vehicles would be great. No more... no less.

2. Andy taught himself how to ride a two wheeler a couple of weeks ago. Now he is getting wild and crazy and giving me heart failure with his craziness everyday on his bike. I might have already said this on here, but like I said... I am just passing the time right now.

3. We had Andy's friend from school over to play yesterday (and his little brother). That was fun. It made the day go faster. I love it that he has school friends who live in the neighborhood. BUT this kid is giong to a different school for 1st grade, so that is a bummer. Atleast he still lives close though.

4. I cant believe school is getting so close. And I cant believe that Justin will be going to preschool a couple of days a week this year too. Ryan will get some one on one time that he has never had before.

5. Andy's b-day is coming up and we are going to bring him to the Twins game for it. He is totally in to baseball this year...it is cute :)

6. I am easily irritated lately

 and 7... my kids (Ok, only Justin) still wont sleep. ugh.

 

Wow, sometimes I even surprise myself

Today has been a pretty good day- if you dont count the times Ryan has kicked my belly button when I lift him up. That really stinks. But...I have had enough of being locked up in this house, so ready or not- I took the boys to the park today. We went to a new one that they havent been to yet and they loved it. It was nice to have a change of scenery for me too! Then after that, I thought this would be a nice day to do our special once a week eat out for lunch day (this is new - hopefully it works). So I bring them to (YUCK) McDonalds. I am so sick of that crappy food, but its what they wanted so I went with it. I ordered 3 happy meals for the kids- all chicken nuggets, and then something for myself. I went and got my pop, and on my way back with the tray of food and pop, I stopped back at the counter to ask for bbq sauce for the nuggets. There were no other customers there, and about 5 girls waiting for someone to show up. The "swing manager" is the one who took our order, and the one who gave me ONE little container of bbq sauce. I looked at her and said we needed 3. She gave me the dirtiest look and said that they charge for them. Wtf?? I looked at her and asked her if she was serious and she just shook her head like a snotty little brat who felt like she was powerful to be in managment at McD's. I said "well forget it- I cant bring ONE back for my 3 kids to share. I dont want it then", and I tossed it off the tray and back on the counter.  As I walked away I was so mad and said that I thought that was ridiculous. Then one of the other girls came over with 3 bbq sauces and said that girl was just being "weird". She asked if I had ordered 3 nuggets, and I said "yes, I paid for 3 chicken nugget happy meals."  This girl just shook her head at the snot behind the counter. Really, I dont know why it made me so mad- but the rudeness just got to me. So, out of no where, I gave the rude beotch of taste of her own attitude. Normally I wouldnt even care- but today...I dont know. I can blame it on the surgery...like I do with everything else. But I dont really think that is why. Just the inner bitch in me??? I dont know. I was nice when I ordered the food, I was nice when I asked for the bbq sauce, and I was nice to the girl who brought back the sauce for the boys. But that little hooch behind the counter- once she got snotty- I couldnt be nice to her. This is why I hate eating out. I love not doing dishes, but then you have to deal with rudeness from the people who are bitter about their jobs and dont like the work. Ok.. enough of that. Now hopefully I can get some laundry or dishes done :)

Back to reality

Wow. It has been so long since I have been on this thing, and I still dont have anything to say. I will though, since I have gotten a few emails wondering where the he$^ I am :) This is the first day in a week that we are back to a normal schedule. Jake is back at work, and I am back to playing with the boys! I am not much for advertising this kind of crap, but I had surgery last Monday. It was really like a 3 for one deal. Great times I tell ya. The whole week has flown by and is a total haze. Gotta love narcotics!! It is so not fun to lift Ryan yet though.
So that is why I havent been on the computer lately. Well- that and we moved it upstairs so I didnt have to stare at the thing all day long. Now it is harder to get on it, and I dont really mind that.
Oh- and thanks to my sweet little Lynnie and Mom for the flowers :) You guys are so damn sweet- I love you!!!

The best part of waking up is folgers in my cup

I have been lazy. Very very lazy all summer long. Usually my kids are dragging me out of bed while I grab my pillows and blankets screaming and crying for 5 more minutes of sleep. I leave those tear marks in the sheets with my fingernails. BUT- today I got out of bed about 20 minutes after Jake went to work (EARLY) , BEFORE the kids woke up. I had a peaceful shower, went downstairs and had a QUIET cup of coffee (well, 3/4 coffee and 1/4 coffee mate- I told you I have a sweet tooth, and I wasnt kidding!) and I did 2 loads of laundry, actaully cleaned the kitchen and did a load of dishes - all by the time the last kid was out of bed (which was 8:00). This was the complete opposite of every other day. This time Justin came walking down to the kitchen and I smiled at him and said GOOD MORNING honey!!! He looked at me, hid behind the corner of the wall with a devilish little smirk on his face, and said, "Don't smile at me mommy!" HA!!! How does it feel, huh?? For once I was more awake than the kids :) ha- ha- ha- haha!!!! Nananananana. Ok- I am being a brat- but man did that feel good! I was clean and I had coffee, not to mention that the kitchen was clean. The house smelled so good being clean ( I love cleaning) and with the coffee going too...maybe- just maybe,  there is potential for me to be a morning person?? I will have to be one when school starts and I have to bring Justin to pre-school 2 days a week, and get Andy on the bus everyday anyway- so I may as well start now!!!

Then, Andy got to play with his future bride. We had beautiful Belle over today so the kids all  played while we mommys talked and hung out. Good times. The thing is that I didnt take my camera out.I am bummed.  It was even right on my counter. How could I have been so careless?? Hmm...maybe I got up too early :) hahaha. But, Andy will have to make sure his brother isnt gonna move in on his girl. See, Justin I think, has a little crush on Belle. He asked her to go play in the basement... It was like asking her on a first date. Maybe he will go for older women. They are wiser and more mature.

I liked this so much, I think I will try it again tomorrow.

 

Poop Goop

Very nice. I did make it to Target tonight all by myself. I bought a small hanging folder box for the kids construction paper. This way it can be organized with each color in its very own folder NOT getting beat up and"unusable". I also got Ryan's prescription filled. His doctor gave him the good stuff for his sore little butt- better than desitin and balmex... we got poop goop :) What a name. I really don't know what is more funny to me. The fact that there is a prescription out there that is actaully called poop goop, or if it is Jake's reaction to it after he read the label.

 

 

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I swear my kids are possessed today

Seriously...just one of those days. Tempertantrums from all 3 at once, defiance, sassing back, fighting with eachother, and one of them is always crying at any given time. You'd think they'd be scared enough to atleast put a good boy show on at the Dr's office for Ryans 15mo. check up, but they were fighting and not listening there too... in front of the Doctor even. Should I mention the blood curdling screams because I wouldnt bring them to Dairy Queen like I said I would IF they were good enough at the Dr.'s office??? You would think I was sawing Andy's leg off or something by how his screams sounded. Seriously. This cant be normal for a 6 year old (Well...almost 6 anyway) . I was going to bring them there (DQ) because this morning, they were actaully AWESOME. They helped me with laundry, dishes, then they made some little art projects out of some of the new construction paper I bought yesterday. Then some switch flipped and they are being horrible. Wtf?????? And then, my sweet little baby Ryan is getting teeth and fighting off some virus that has given him some nasty diapers and a rash to go along wtih it...but he has been crabby and clingy and fussy (I would be too- poor little dude) but I am at my wits end man!!! HELP MOMMY - I NEED A NIGHT OUT MAN!!!!!!!!!!! Even Target by myself...

Time to use parental block on the tv...

I have decided that I need to block Andy from using certain channels on the tv. No, no, he is not out there looking at porn, or violence. I need to block him from the weather channel. He is constantly watching the weather channel or Kare11, and if he's not doing that, he wants me to look up the weather map on the computer. I could get excited and think he will be the next Sven Sungard, but really I think he is terrified of storms, even if there arent any to be seen. He will hear fireworks going off at night (We have REALLY polite neighbors who light them off all night long, and another set of smart parents of the year, who let their kids start bon fires and throw fireworks in the fire all night- but that is a whole different subject), so anyway...he will come downstairs and say he heard thunder. He is obsessed with what color the clouds are, or if it is going to rain, or if the power is going to go out. I am trying so hard not to lose my patients with him, but my god, I am so tired of hearing about it. Everything we talk about somehow gets turned into making him feel better about storms. He will just come up out of nowhere and tell me that the sky looks pretty good today, or ask me if it is humid enough for a storm. I dont want him to be this scared. I think I am going to the school store to find him something weather related that will be fun for both of us, and will help him understand the weather better, instead of driving me nuts with 24/7 weather talk and then me telling him its no big deal...when it really is a big deal to him. Ay ay ay... I love the weather too...but this is too much for even me to handle!!

Landscaper from...

You get the point. The people who did our sod and planted the tree last fall are just never ending morons. They missed about a foot or two of sod running along the whole side of the yard. The tree they planted in our yard last fall only came back 1/2 way this year. So we finally get them to get us a new tree. (He tried telling us to pick off the dead branches...but then there wouldnt have been anything left of the tree). So last Friday, they came to plant the new tree. Maybe they are just not that smart, maybe they just dont care, or maybe they were just pissed off that they had to come out and give us a tree that actually had leaves on it...but the punks who planted this new one, didnt plant it deep enough. So, I can see part of the root ball sticking up out of the grass and when the wind blows, the tree leans really bad in whatever direction the wind is blowing it. When we water it, the tree gets really tippy since the water turns its base into mud. Then the tree wiggles into a 45 degree angle. I am surprised the thing is still standing. It took us about 2 months to get them our there the first time so I dont even want to bother with those jerks anymore. We are capable of doing it ourselves, but it pisses me off since we PAID them to do this and they cant even get it right after the second time. Some neighbors have had trouble with them too. I just wantto go ring their necks. I see them doing a job at the new neighbors house and I want to go tell them to finish planting the tree in our yard, but I am sure they'd say that it was normal...just like the dead tree we had before. The markings for the gas line are gone and the line is pretty clos eto the tree- otherwise I'd be out there digging the right sized hole for the tree. Bunch of half assed workers- I dont know how they stay in business. The house they are doing now was supposed to be started at the beginning of June and they just started there a couple of days ago. Grrr.  Ok... I gotta stop before I get too crabby. I just get so mad when I look out and finally have a nice tree but its planted crooked as hell. JERKS jerks jerks