I love you and miss you. Atleast I know that Andy, Justin, Ryan and Haylee have the best guardian angel we could have ever asked for. I wish they could have met their uncle- they would have adored you :)
Watch them for your 2 little sisters, would ya??
I like to play this game with Justin alot. I played it with Andy too, but now he is in first grade, and this game isn't fun for him so he doesnt like to play it with me anymore. I guess it's not really a game though- I just sit and ask Justin the opposite of whatever word comes to mind. What is the opposite of Up? What is the opposite of black? So today, I asked him what the opposite of high is. When he finally answered me, it took me a minute to figure out what he meant since I was excpecting to hear "Low". He tells me the opposite of "high" is "hello". Once I figured out the way he took the meaning of HIGH as HI - I busted up. I couldnt stop. I guess it must have been on of those -you had to be there- times...but I thought it was pretty cute :)
Yesterday Ryan said 2 new words within an hour of eachother: Daddy and Tickle, tickle! It was so cute to hear and see him talking. He hasnt really been much of a talker yet. He has pretty much stuck with Hi, mama/num num (same word sometimes) and "here go" when he hands you something. But yesterday after we got done eating, Jake took Ryan out of his high chair and Ryan walks right up to Justin and smiles. Then he sticks his little chubby hand in between the bars on the back of the chair and tickles Justin and this time actually says "tickle tickle tickle" It was so darn cute. It came out :"ti-go, ti-go, ti-go" but in his cute little voice it melted my heart.
Later on Jake was out staking up the new trees we planted in the back yard and Ryan was watching him through the patio door in the kitchen. He is sitting here saying Hiiiiiiii Hhhiiiiiiiii... so I say Hiiiiii Daaaaadddyyyy. Then Ryan repeated me clear as day :) "Hiiiii Daddy!" He even spit out an "Andy" (sounds like 2 different words...Aaaa- neeee) and a "love you" too (yaaa-yooo). I am just all lovey and squishy over it. He has said love you and Andy before...just not often. He must have felt like being talkative yesterday :) I am so proud of my little baby!!
Last night I went to see Sylvia Browne at the convention center. I REALLY needed to have a night out, so it was really fun. I dont know if I believe that stuff or not. Some of it was so real, but then I wondered if they planted some of those people in the audience? Other people got answers that even I could have given... my personal favorite was this one...
The night my husband/son/nephew (cant remember which one) died, he went down into the basement with the phone. Why did he do that??
Here was Sylvia Brownes real answer after she looked like she was thinking real real hard....
Ummm.... to make a phone call... yeah. He was just going to make a phone call.
Really?? Okay. Because I was confused about why someone would have the phone with them. I thought maybe he was going to try to be like McGayver and make a bomb out of it to commit suicide that way. Making a phone call was the LAST thing I would have ever thought he'd of been doing with the phone.
BUT it was fun. I had a great time with the people I went with and it was entertaining. I wish the number on my wrist band was called to ask a question so I could have seen how real and accurate the answer was. My Mother-in-Law was only ONE number away from getting called. Maybe next time?
Like the picture banner across the top? That is where my hubby will be shortly- but only for an hour or so. Ok...not exactly Nashville like in the picture, but Memphis. This is as close as I could get though. I didnt see a banner for Memphis- (I didnt really look either :). Hopefully everything goes smooth- if it does, he will be home tomorrow. If not, then Friday. Should I worry that he'll be flying home on September 11th??? I already turn into a super paranoid emotional cry baby when he has to fly for work...but come on. Out of all the days...364 OTHER days to be exact (not counting a leap year,but go ahead of you really want to), they picked that one. WTF. I am going to lose my freaking mind.
We (me and the boys) went out in the driveway to watch for his plane tonight. Last time he said it pretty much flew over our house and he could see it from up there. How neat. We waited for about 15 minutes, but no planes right over our house. They must have been going off a different runway tonight. We did see one north of here at about the right time, so for the kids sake, I said that it was daddy's plane. For all I know it really could have been. They waved to it and said bye Daddy, we love you. See you tomorrow and good night. Then they blew it a kiss. This is where my cry baby-ness comes out! I was totally choking back my stupid ass tears saying 'yep, bye daddy, we love you" and then waved to the plane too. This f-ing sucks.
(I have had a potty mouth lately- so just ignore my bad words if they bother you. Sometimes its just too hard to hold them back)
Now I get to spend the next 20 hours trying to NOT let my head get the best of me. This is where I sit and imagine worst case scenarios. I imagine *what if* and picture having to explain bad things to the little kids, or how I would do it without him. Then I get myself to the point of crying and have to tell myself waht a dumbass I am being...but I cant help it..it's in my genes to be paranoid. Sick, I know. You could call it a special talent that I have. I cant wait till tomorrow night when he is home safe and sound.
Since I wrote that I was waiting for all of my stuff to get here yesterday (for weeks) it ALL showed up. How exciting! The couches look nice being the same color again. I am worried about the bar stools for the kitchen though. After I put the first one together, I saw a warning lable on the outside of one of the other boxes that said "Handling or using this product will expose you to lead"... What part of this is lead? The little wrench they give you to assemble the thing, the screws, or the stain/paint that they used to finish the chair??? I dont want my kids sitting on a chair that has lead somewhere on it. I want grandkids some day damnit! And not to mention the other bad things that go along with lead. So we'll see if I keep those. I am going to call to see if they can tell me where they used lead. If its the tools- no big deal. If its the stain/laquer they used on it, then forget it. Who the hell used lead these days. Damn you JcPenneys.
I am getting sooooooo soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo imaptient. We ordered 2 slip covers for the couches in the living room. Well...I guess we bought the one in stock and ordered the other one that we needed that wasnt there on the shelf. The cashier ordered it and had it shipped to our house with no delivery charge, which was very nice. The bad thing is that she ordered the wrong style. I waited 3 weeks for the thing to show up and it was the wrong one :( So we went to the store and returned the wrong one and they ordered the right one and said it would be another 2 weeks. We are probably going on just over 6 weeks now since we first ordered the thing in the first place. AND I ordered 3 bar stools for the island in the kitchen from the same place about 1- 1 1/2 weeks ago. So any day, I should be getting the ups truck at my door with goodies for my house. It feels like they will never get here. The chairs are still in the normal time frame for delivery, but that slip cover is driving me crazy. They screwed it up in the first place and now we are STILL waiting. Any longer and I am gonna go find the truck myself and deliver it myself. I bet Mr. McFeeley would have had it to us 4 weeks ago. :) I just get so excited to get the things that will make the rooms feel more cozy and finished!!! I guess theres no hurry since we will be here forever...but I am getting impatient for the things we ordred 6 weeks ago...and worried they are lost or delivered to the wrong place!
Oh- and now everytime I hear a truck go by, I get so excited and have to go check the door to see if it was the UPS man :) Pathetic!! I feel like a little kid at Christmas!
Today when I was eating a peanut butter and jelly with Justin, we were talking about things that little kids like to talk about. I was singing a song and Justin told me to sing a Christmas song instead. The first song that came into my head was "Up on the Roof top"- so I sing it to my 2 smallest little boys...
Afterwards, Justin asked me, " How does Santa get down those chimneys anyways mom?" I told him it was specail Santa magic and not even mommy knows how Santa does it! Its a secret! Justin says, "No mom! I know how he does it! He has a door knob in his pocket that he takes out and wherever he wants to get in, he sticks the door knob and makes the door with the magic!"
Well... I guess he has it all figured out :) I love the imagination- I wish mine worked like that!!!
I cant believe the first week of schol is almost over already! It has been going great too! Last year was so hard for Andy...and for me- becuase it was hard to hear him say that he just wanted to stay home and play with us and his toys ;) But this year has been great so far. He loves his teacher and has friends from last year in his class this year. Even Justin has done great so far! He kind of remembers me leaving him in the sib care room while me and Andy went to his class for ECFE preschool a couple of years ago...but he has never just been dropped off and alone like this! I have always been in the same building (Unless it is grandmas house or something, but thats different!) He strutted his stuff the whole way to school, up the sidewalk, peeked through the door like get this thing open, strutted to his classroom and once we got there... cowered behind my leg :) One little sentence was all he needed, and then he was fine! All I had to tell him was that the other kids were nervous too- and he started up the strut again (after he made sure the Thomas the Train table was still in the classroom!) I am so proud of my two little school boys :) Heres some pictures from the first day...a little late!
Waitng for school to start....
Still waiting for school to start...
Every year we will take their picture in front of this door :) It will be crazy to look back on how much they grow each year!
Buddies (for the moment!)
Everyone is getting their higs and kisses...it's time to go!!!
Well, would you let us in already???
Hmmm. Do I REALLY want to go through with this??
My first day of preschool ever! I found a toy and I am happy as could be!
I took this one on my way out the door. Obviously you can tell which one of us has separation anxiety. I will give you a hint. It is NOT the 3 1/2 year old! I looked back and saw him sitting their coloring with his friends and I kind of got teary. I cant believe thiat is my little Justin. What a big boy!!!
I wish I could go to Andy's class with him and take pictures too...but in 1st grade, I think they might not like that! haha. I did get some of him getting off the bus though! What a week!
