Bad morning...

What a morning. It started great- I was having a dream that me and Jake were on our honeymoon at the same place we really went 8 years ago. He woke me up to say bye before he left for work- and it was downhill from there. I was so worried about him because he was REALLY tired and has a long drive. So once I fianlly fell asleep again (he goes to work early - I dont get up that early), I had a dream that I was going to die. Ick. Somehow I knew it, but I dont know how. Then there was a hispanic lady that saw me at a store and and she was really sweet looking- but she came up to me and smiled and said something about "los muertos" as she touched my face. Why was I dreaming in spanish???haha. So then I get jolted out of bed and my bad dream because I faintly hear Justin bawling his eyes out. I get out of my room and realize he is not in his room. My first thought was Oh shit- did he fall out of his window (on the 2nd floor)?? I hear him from outside of the front door screaming and crying yelling for "MOMMMY!!!" By the time I get to the door he is ringing it a few times and I open it to see him standing there scared and shaking. We have the locks that you can open from the inside but they are still locked from the outside- so that is how he got out and couldnt get back in. I asked him why he went out there and he said he was looking for me. I dont know why he didnt look IN the house first- but atleast it is not winter. I just sat and hugged him forever and once he calmed down, I put him back to bed. I had another bad dream after that, but dont remember what it was. Now the kids are in this crazy competitive funk today and it is stressing me out. I have to go tothe grocery store since I havent gone since we've been back. Do I dare? I just want to stay in the house and sit on the couch and watch tv and do nothing all day long. I am determined that this day WILL get better. It has to!! :)