After the post I wrote a while back, I have been thinking about my brother so much again. Not that I ever went a day without thinking of him about 50 times before- but now he is constantly on my mind.
All this thinking gave me the best dream I have almost ever had. The best dream I have had was still of him though. That one was the Christmas morning after his accident...maybe I'll get into that one a different day.
Last night I dreamt that I was in a room with some people in my family- but I dont remember exactly who, and they told me they had a surprise for me. I was excited and asked what it was. They told the surprise to come out from the other room- and it was my brother! Standing and walking and smiling at me. He was wearing a new flannel- it stuck out in my head for some reason because the color was kind of like a golden mix and it reminded me of a bright fall day. His face was just staring at me, smiling and waiting for my reaction. It was like he was back here with us again, and he was better, all fixed and this was all just one reaaally long drawn out nightmare. I ran over to him and malled him...I gave him the biggest bear hug I could have ever given and I hugged him so tight and wouldnt let go of him, and he wouldnt let me go either. I just cried and cried on his shoulder and he hugged me tight while I cried because I was so happy to have my big brother back. That is all I remember...I wish it never ended, I wish it were real. I woke up so happy and excited for a split second, but when I got my thoughts together and realized it was just a dream- I was so bummed. It felt so real. I really felt like we were hugging- and it felt so awesome. I think I will be going to bed early tonight to wait for another hug from him :)
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